How Love Hurts..

You told me that you loved me, you told me that you always will. Then one
night as I sit home waiting for you to call I heard that you didn't want me
and that you went out with your old girlfriend. As I heard this the tears
just wouldn't stop falling. Then you called me and I asked you about and you

started to yell at me. As you yelled I could feel my heart break into.

To me it was so perfect, to me it was going fine, i never thought i'd lose you i thought you'd always be mine.How come i never noticed, how come i couldn't see, that you were changing your mind, the way you felt about me.We could of worked it out, wecould of talked it through, but you left it so long, there was only one thing you could do. You tried to tell me nicely, you asked me if i'd cry, but my heart just tore apart, as i let out a sigh. We hugged for the last time, and i didn't wanna let go, but i finally pulled away as i told myself no! i held i n my tears i began to walk away, when people asked what happened, i had nothing else to say, except "ï wanna be alone, and i don't wanna talk," so i went around the corner, and went for a little walk. i decided to sit down, as i felt my eyes go red, i gazed at the floor, in my hands i held my head. The tears poured down my face, as i asked myself why,why did it happen, why did he lie. I didn't wanna believe it, yet i knew it was so true, that we were definatly over, that you and i wre through, I still can't believe, you expected me to guess, when i had no idea, i was totally clueless!....Poem by Renee Fletcher.

Tell him that I hate him
Tell him that I love someone new
Tell him that I don't need him anymore
Tell him that he is nothing for me
But please....
Don't tell him that I cried when I said all that.

WHY MY HEART? :(

Why My Heart :

You where my all the one I adored, The one who I trusted the most in the world. I gave you the pureist of me You asked me to trust you. See my love was real i guess yours was fake because i would have never lied to you or pushed you away. You have no idea how much I have cried asking the Lord why my heart, why did you brake me in half this pain that consumes me and won't let me think . My heart had never felt such pain yet the one who asked me to trust caused this enourmous hurt and disappointment and yes shame. Don't worry about saying sorry or you wish me the best what goes around comes around and that is what i have to say about that. Adios Mi Amor My Bay this Love is the One you let slip away. Don't think that I will cry forever I love myself too much But yes know this you hurt me soooo Dam much. One day the only one you gave away will be the one your wishing for. Why my heart????.....

You knock on the door & seems so sincere. Slowly convinving me to open the
door. Eventually I allowed you into take a sit. You did not stay long,
disappearing as sudden as u've appear.
Anger emerge from this sudden emptiness. You got me adapted to your
companionship only to pick up & leave.
I opened the door, allowing myself to be vulnerable, believing that you'll
protect me & shelter me from reality, but instead, the one that I entrusted
my heart & soul was the one that hurt me most.

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One Last Cry

My shattered dreams and broken
Heart are mending on the shelf.
I saw you holding hands standing so close to someone else.
Now I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone.
I'd give my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry.

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind,this time
Stop living a lie.
I guess I'm down to one last cry.

Cry

I was here,you were there.
Guess we never could agree.
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain on me.
Still, I sit all alone,
Wishing all my feelings were gone.
Gotta get over you.
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry.


I know I gotta be strong,
But 'round me
Life goes on and on and on, and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I have my one last cry.

my past painful

for a post at this time I want to tell me if just GSW send sms and call me, but he called on my father's cell phone around 20:15 hours earlier. was appointed by my father but he did not say anything just stay quiet. then he sms me "Dira", then I reply with my number "doing as yousms to my number? I'm not a Dira" and he replied "continue?" then I'm back again "it's not that time I was honest, do not pretend not to know" but he's no longer reply sms from me.

actually I'm very confused, what is he contacted me again with this title? in that time I was honest with him, as I read the text of the men had started my body is hot again and hands, my feet became cold. why when I was starting to forget him, he just casually come again in my life. I was very sick with all this VERY SICK!! if only he knew the true sense of my heart, but did not seem likely. I really know him how his character and attitude.


I do not know, I'm confused by the way his mind. but for sure I still had a little taste of him, but why does my heart used to be when you receive a message from him? oh god is this a sign that I was able to forget him? if it's true I'm very thankful to you:) I hope he's happy there even though I'm a pain here.

Cried Inside

Why do I have to cry again? I was not strong when I have to bury it all. What might all this be my mask I'm open. For everyone to know that behind the mask of cheerful. I think I want to vent complaints. But who would want to hear? I do not know who want the same story? There are enough who want to listen to my story.

TRUTH

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Escape The Fate - Harder Than You Know (+ Lyrics)